Tuesday

Blaaahhhhhh

I need to unload some crap. I thought i might do it here. Hope you don't mind. It has been a minute since i posted on this the prebaby blog that I once nurtured the way I now try to nurture my son. I find myself trying to work through some crap. Let's see, where should I start?

My father died December 8th
I feel like I want to claw my own skin off (not really sure what that's about)
My antidepressant works but is ravaging my liver (yay)
Motherhood is challenging
I am very restless
Several health issues diagnosed in 2010; sleep apnea, fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder

With all that I am just exhausted mentally and constantly physically fatigued. Not to mention I have had no 'me' time. Thus, no down time, no grieving time, no nothin'... Of course I can have scheduled 'me' time but what good is that? When it's convenient for everyone.

I will now breath in and exhale slowly...