I don't love you

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

Changes

It is strange how the view of the world changes when you think you are gravely ill.

I find myself daydreaming about long vacations on the beach and driving really fast sports cars.

Other things in my life fall under a closer scrutinising eye. Am I happy? Will I be able to be happy for the rest of my life in my current situation? How long will I live? One year or 60 more?

Happiness is almost like a mythical unicorn when you are in the day to day grind.

I have found it easier to ponder life changing events.

What would I have done differently? Would I have been nicer to people if I would had known that my life may possibly be cut short?

I am looking at things in a whole new light.

Sometimes it takes a startling realization to force people to return to who they really are. Not a job title or a paycheck or social status.

I have not found out anything definite, but when I do, I will share it.

Nothing is in stone. Life is what you make of it. So, have a little fun, no matter how much time you have left on this earth.

Life, It Ain't What I Ordered

Have you ever felt like someone is sucking the life out of you? That is how I woke up feeling this morning. I don't know how, but things are gonna change. I can't live like this anymore. Suffication is a terrible way to die.

Snow Patrol

It NEVER snows in Chattanooga...or the outskirts for that matter. But guess what we woke up to this morning...SNOW!


I was able to snap some shots of Yanna & Mauser playing in the wonderful white stuff!

Mauser

Yanna

Apparently "Never" took today off!!!! Yayyyyy!

Pushing my buttons

I wish I had a button like this on my keyboard.

I think I have stumbled upon the "easy button's" competition!

I know which one I'm gonna push!

Loathing

Well, I think it is sufficient to say that today, I hate myself.

I can't tell you why...I'd have to kill you.

Have you ever wanted something so badly, that you contemplate changing your whole life just to get it?

ADD & ADHD

Sometimes, kids may actually have a problem, but in observation the world around me, I have realized that if these methods shown were used, they would probably do the trick!
Instead lots of parents hand their kids a 6 pack of soda, some ice cream, and tell them to go watch tv...Then they wonder why they are all hypped up.....duhhhh!

Fuckers and The Y

Today was as stressful day in the RMW world.

I had a hard day @ work and some of the ppl. I work with are, well,....dumb asses!

I know that we are all,(well...mostly all),humans, and alas, humans make mistakes.

It just seems that there are a few who are just completely incompetent! I hate that! I have to go around after them like a baby sitter and try to help them with there problems, when they should know by now what the fucking 411 is!

As if that weren't enough, I went to the Y tonight to work off some of my stress. The workout was fantastic! Thank's Pat!

However, when I went to leave it went down like this:
I had a parking place close to the door, my friend however had one in the next zip code. So, we have made it a practice that if one of us is way the hell out there, the other waits until the far away one waves once they get to their car. So we did this. All along I am standing at my car with my door open.

I get the wave from said friend, so I jump into my ride to be whisked away to Sand Mountain.

As I am backing up I realize that there is a dumb ass parked parallel in a no parking zone behind my car! WTF? MOVE! I see this person looking at me in their damn minivan.

Did they move?!?

NO! I HAD TO GET OUT AND YELL, "Can you move it!?"!

They reluctantly moved. Fuckers!

What gets me is that they saw me waiting, standing outside my car, what the hell were they doing?

Fuck wades! UUURRRGGHHHHH!

Slur & Slurred Speech

Good afternoon my lil' bloggin' bunnies! How was your night? Mine was great. I actually did not stumble to the passenger side of the car last night! Yay for me! Actually, I had lots of fun people watchin'.

The only downfall to the whole damn night was this stupid ass redneck guy who was trying to pick up a black chick and her drunk ass friend.

Now, you say...why does it matter if she's a black chick? Well, because after he acted like Forrest Gump & Austin Powers...(very poorly I might add)... he to call her a nigger.
ps-I thought all human kind was to take this word and bury in their backyard?

That's right! To her face! She didn't even flinch. I was like, WTF did he just say?!?

She must have had some good liquor in her 'cause it pissed me off and it had nothin whatsoever to do with ME!

Drunk dumb asses!

For other fun racial slurs, please visit:
http://gyral.blackshell.com/names.html

Help Me Help Myself

Damn it! If I buy something that doesn't have a handle, and it's heavy,say like detergent, put it in a damn bag!

If I have to ask you to put in a bag, don't be surprised if I sound bitchy about it!

What the fuck!?

That's right people, I said fuck. Now we all know this is one of my most favorite words. Can someone please tell me why people freak out over curse words? And why are they called "curse" words?

Having said that, I know that I am around the age of becoming a parent. I can't very well have little children running around screaming fuck all the time. But why? It just seems wrong to me because I have always been told that it was a "bad" word.

What if i told the children it was a "grown-up" word that they couldn't say until they ripened in age? I am unsure...

As far as the kid thing goes, my hubby and i have 9 parents and 1 bitch to contend with as grandparents.

What? ...You say, "how can one possibly have so many grandparents?". Well, here's the laundry list of people who will be grandparents, should my husband and i decide to reproduce.

His side:
mom & step-father
biological father &step-mother
adoptive father & the bitch

My side:
mom & step-dad
dad & step-mom

Until later my pets...

Envy & Despair

Sorry about the no posting lately people. Lots of things going on.

I found out that my best friend, Yes, best friend since sixth grade thankyouverymuch...she's gonna have a baby! Yay! The best of luck wished for her and her hubby!

Also, my grandfather is in the hospital, due for open heart surgery tomorrow. six bypasses.

Lots goin' on, I just didn't want you all to think that I abandoned the blog world. I love you guys and could never leave you!

Later...

Become

There's so much more about you that you never let them see
You turn away
But not to me
And I know how they tried to take you
Held you up and meant to break you down
But you can't be

For so long I tried to reach you
I know I'm almost there
I'm close enough for you to see

You've been hiding in the shadows
Have you forgotten how we used to dream
Let me remind you
The light doesn't blind you at all
It just helps you see
Can you see

Yeah you have become
Yeah you have become beautiful

And I can't be the stranger
That's been sleeping in your bed just
Turn around and come to me
I feel all the pain inside
And everything you been denied you feel
It's all you feel

You've been hiding in the shadows
Have you forgotten how we used to dream
Let me remind you
The light doesn't blind you at all
It helps you see
Can you see

Yeah you have become
Yeah you have become beautiful
Yeah you have become
Yeah you have become beautiful

Brush back your hair and look around you
Feeling like the truth has found you here
You're here with me
Let love become the mirror
With no fear where you're from
You have become beautiful

Crazy ass people!

Everyone that I have talked to in the last month asks, "Have you gotten all your christmas shopping done?". People, I do not celebrate christmas.

Now, I understand that the majority of America celebrates cmas, I do not. When I was younger and at home, I celebrated this holiday. Up until 2 years ago, I even put up a tree. Now, I assure you that my celebration had nothing to do with jesus. To me, it was all about what do I get this one, and what's that one gonna get me.

I now have decided that I do not want to continue the maddening cycle of greed. I also do not believe christ is my personal savior. Those two things together pretty much throw christmas out the window. So, I just view this time of year as a time to spend with family and friends. No gifts needed.

In closing, to all you crazy ass people out there that say to me, "Have you gotten all your shopping done?", & that are driving around the mall parking lots for two hours to find a place to park, & are stressing over if they will like it or if it will fit them, I will say this so you understand me, "Shut the fuck up already!

KracK KoKaine

I went to dinner with the BIL tonight. It was nice. Afterwards we drove around looking for somewhere that was open we could all hang out at for a while. Luckily we found a book store with one more hour to closing. So, we enter, split up, and eventually find each other right before we leave to depart each others company. Funny... hugh!?

The hubby and I are driving home and we realize we are within "spitin' distance" of the local Krispy Kreme. YUM! We of course bought one dozen original glazed and one dozen of choc covered custard filled/choc covered cream filled.

I really can't wait until the holiday is over....I can't stop eating them! I think they must put drugs in yummy foods like this. Although, when I checked out their homepage, I was relieved to know that all ingrediants used were "kosher"!!!!!

Ha!

Non-Springer Thanksgiving

Well, the turkey day has passed. It was rather uneventful. Which was nice for a change. I didn't get cussed out or made fun of. I even didn't get to leave my family get together in tears as I usually do. It was great.

I did have to miss out on seeing parts of my family I really like. I guess that everything costs something. Nothin' is for free.

My brother in law is gallivanting around in the Garden State as we speak. I hope he'd havin' a good time. I missed him at the Jordan/Carty bash. It was nice though.

D got to take his mom for a spin in the Vette. She said it reminded her of riding a horse. Funny how LIFE makes a circle when you least expect it.

I am very thankful for...

1. G-d.
2. My husband and his love.
3. My family that loves me unconditionally.
   
4. My small circle of friends, no matter how loose that circle becomes.
   
5. Our home.
   
6. The animals that we have and their love for us.
7. A good job and a great manager.
8. The ability to donate food and money to the less fortunate.
9. Forgiveness
10. Life